Laughing

You know what sucks is when you hear people laugh out loud! I can't laugh out loud, when I laugh it starts out like a noise then goes silent and you just see me laughing and my shoulders moving I have a silent laugh and when I laugh now I try to laugh out loud so if you ever hear me laugh out loud it's a fake laugh but whatever I'm laughing at is funny still so my laughs fake but not the joke. Does that make sense I confused my self.